LEARNING TO TRUST MYSELF

Something I’ve had to learn the hard way over the past few years was to trust myself. Believe that I know what I am doing in each moment is the right decision and move without hesitation, but more importantly move without needing the advice, validation or any kind of input from anyone other than myself…and God.

Its been so easy for me to silence my inner most desires because others may have a negative opinion of them. Ive learned that I much rather fall on my face and fail because of a decision I made rather than have listened to someone else and allow them to influence me.

In becoming a mother for the first time, I was so afraid and felt I didn’t know anything. I read books and asked for advice any chance I got. Then it dawned on me that I was designed to do this job and if I got in tuned with myself and my child, I could do it. Intuition, instinct and experience with children family members have prepared me for this role. I had to tell myself “ you got this” and actually believe it.

The most important thing I believe, is to know yourself. And that takes time. Everyday is an opportunity to get closer to who you truly are and what you really desire. Once you are on that path your decisions will become that much easier and you wont need to allow those outside voices in.

Trusting yourself also takes a level of confidence. I feel like confidence can be built in setting goals for yourself and accomplishing them. Or working on something you thought was difficult and getting through. Those tiny wins are all building up our confidence. And once we have that confidence, there will be no reason to question our decisions.

Im stiLl a work in progress, however I am happy that I noticed it was something I had to address in my life. Now I can continue to actively work towards it in order to because exactly the women I want to be and live the live that I have dreamed of.

xo Sadiya